I'm back!

I'm officially back to my blog.

I cannot promise that I will write a new post everyday, or even every week, for that matter, but I am back, and I will start writing again!

I took a leave of absence from my blog back in September of 2011.  I did not want to leave my blog, but I knew it was the best thing for me to do at that time in my life.

I was in a very depressing state (which was made worse by some things that were said/done by others), and I did not know where I needed to go or what I needed to do with my life, but I am so much better now.  My faith in God has been affirmed, and I now have a much clearer picture of my life and the path I must take in it.

Many things have happened since September of 2011.  I celebrated my 25th birthday on October 6th, 2011.  Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's were a blast with my family.  I started working out again (I am determined to finish losing the weight I need to lose - while I have not saw much of a result on the scale, my clothes are fitting looser & I did have to buy smaller shirts and jeans when I went shopping)!  I am still taking online classes toward my Bachelor's Degree in Elementary Education, and they are going great, as of right now!

And to finish this post, I would like to say thank you to all my followers/readers.  While I did not write a single blog post between the last one in September 2011 and today, I still had many readers each month.  I was amazed when I logged in and saw that I still had several people reading my posts, even though I had nothing new on my blog for several months.

Thank you all so very much for your continued support and for reading and commenting on my blog posts!

time. to. get. real.

{this post is coming straight from my heart & head - it is what is on my mind today}

{disclaimer:  there may derogatory statements and plenty of negativity in this post - i do not usually include this in my posts, but today is all about being real, not full of fluff}

*time. to. get. real.*

the tears won't stop flowing

it's like a river is exploding

i can't keep my thoughts away

they keep causing me disarray

i wish i could turn off my brain

i'm going to go insane

i'm in so much pain

and i can't stop the rain

when is enough, enough

time is up for the fluff

the pain won't wash away

can't wait for a better day

when will i smile again

please lend me a helping hand

everyone is so full of hate

i guess you can't change your own fate

what do you do when no one cares about you

what do you do when no one notices how much you do

i'm getting so sick of this

i need to make a wish

i want to disappear

get as far as i can away from here

start a brand new life

without all the stress and the strife

i'm ready to end it all

the chips are about to fall

i need the tables to turn

when will i ever learn

i have to make my own way

there will be a brighter day

time to do my own thing

i'm going dancing in this rain

{if you actually read through all of that, thank you for taking the time to listen to my rant - i appreciate all of my readers and followers, and i will get back to posting as usual as soon as i can}