time. to. get. real.

{this post is coming straight from my heart & head - it is what is on my mind today}

{disclaimer:  there may derogatory statements and plenty of negativity in this post - i do not usually include this in my posts, but today is all about being real, not full of fluff}

*time. to. get. real.*

the tears won't stop flowing

it's like a river is exploding

i can't keep my thoughts away

they keep causing me disarray

i wish i could turn off my brain

i'm going to go insane

i'm in so much pain

and i can't stop the rain

when is enough, enough

time is up for the fluff

the pain won't wash away

can't wait for a better day

when will i smile again

please lend me a helping hand

everyone is so full of hate

i guess you can't change your own fate

what do you do when no one cares about you

what do you do when no one notices how much you do

i'm getting so sick of this

i need to make a wish

i want to disappear

get as far as i can away from here

start a brand new life

without all the stress and the strife

i'm ready to end it all

the chips are about to fall

i need the tables to turn

when will i ever learn

i have to make my own way

there will be a brighter day

time to do my own thing

i'm going dancing in this rain

{if you actually read through all of that, thank you for taking the time to listen to my rant - i appreciate all of my readers and followers, and i will get back to posting as usual as soon as i can}

Football :)

The official start to the NFL season is tonight!

YAY!

I cannot wait to start watching the football games.

I especially love that football is here because it means that fall is soon coming!

So, tonight I will be watching the Saints at Packers, enjoying every minute of it!

For all my fellow NFL lovers - you can find the complete NFL season schedule here!

source

Oh, and I cannot wait to try this when I have some friends over to watch football!

What I'm Loving Wednesday!

Today, I am linking up with Jamie, @ This Kind of Love, for What I'm Loving Wednesday!

I'm loving...

...the cooler weather & 70 degree temperatures!

...that I can drive with the windows down now (& not sweat like a crazed person)!

...that I have one week left in this class, and I get to start a new one.

...that fall is right around the corner - yay!

...that my birthday is in less than a month!

...that it is Wednesday already - halfway through the week!

What are you loving today?

My Camera Broke! :(

My. Camera. Broke.

It sucks!  Well, it is not actually broken.

It will take pictures, if I can get the batteries to stay in it!

Ha ha!

So, I pulled my camera out of my purse, and then took it out of it's carrying case, only to have the batteries fall out of it.

Yea, the door that holds the batteries in decided to break!  So, now I will need to tape it up or use a rubberband or something. :(

And, I need to buy batteries, too! :)

On better notes, I have read two more books, just have to write my posts about them now.  And, I only have one week left in this class, and I start a new one! Yay!

It's OK Thursday!

Today, I am linking up with Amber, from Brunch with Amber.

It's OK....

.....that I went to my brother's grave today to wish him a happy birthday.

....that even though my brother is gone, I miss him like crazy and still cry every now and then when I think of him.

....that I am so not feeling school right now (I love the information, just can't get into the classes for some reason).

....that I have not worked out in forever and I eat my weight in food (slight exaggeration, but I haven't gained any weight, so yay!).

....that I cannot wait for fall because it is too hot.

....that I am enjoying my free time right now (even though I am unemployed and really need a job)!

....that I want to please everybody & I have a really hard time saying "NO".

....that I want more readers & followers!

What is OK with you?



Happy Birthday James!

September 1, 1983

A beautiful baby boy was born!

He was perfect.

He still is perfect.

His name is James Bradley Yow!

He is my brother.

Today is his 28th birthday.

Or, it would be.

But, he is no longer living on Earth.

He is now living in Heaven.

Even though he is no longer with us on Earth,

I still wanted to wish him a Happy Birthday!

*I do not have a pic on my computer of my brother as of this moment, so I will be adding it later, or it will be added to the post on September 18, 2011 about the 15th anniversary of his death.  Or, both!*